My biggest takeaway of the summer is that I’m ready to take charge of the “career” part of my life. I’m 38, so this feels like it’s a long time coming. And yet, I’m confident that the timing is pretty much perfect. I’m ready to claim my calling as a real life writer.
Career seeking was not a place I expected to find myself in this stage of life. I thought, when I became a stay at home mom, it was a long term plan. I planned to later add “homeschooling mom” to my job duties and just keep up this mom thing for the long haul. But it seems that God has different plans for me. (Funny how that works, isn’t it?)
If I were to describe myself to a stranger, the third or fourth thing I would tell them is that I am a huge proponent of “projects.” I am hugely energized by the idea of doing some sort of new and ambitious venture for a set amount of time. I get to come up with the idea, daydream a bit, figure out an action plan, give it a go with a burst of new-project-energy and then move on to the next idea. Because - ideas are always flowing around here and because part of me thrives on change. In short, short term challenges are 100% my jam.
So… writing? It doesn’t exactly fit this bill. It’s big and time intensive and doesn’t have an end. It also requires a degree of vulnerability that I haven’t experienced before and that has paralyzed me before I even got started in previous chapters of my life.
All of this to say: claiming writing as my calling should feel scary. And yet - I bet you saw this one coming - it doesn’t.
In a million little ways, I can see how God has been preparing me and how he has fit things together to bring me to this place. But my biggest hope for the future - the hope that is taking root in my heart despite my very real “what’s next?” and “I don’t want this mom part to end” fears - is the blanket of peace that I can almost literally feel enveloping me.
I am going into this next season with God’s arms wrapped snugly around me. I don’t know what lies ahead, but I’m taking it day by day and fully enjoying each little bit as it comes. It’s a pretty great way to take on a new path and you can bet I’m feeling enormously grateful.