Feb 16, 2015


Time for everything

The other day, I had half an hour to myself and thought it sounded nice to just write.  Not for a blog post or really for any purpose other than just to get my thoughts and feelings onto paper.

The first sentence that fell on my paper was this, "I am dreaming of having time to write and reflect."  

I rounded out a nice long paragraph with all the things I dreamed of having time to do.  I wished for date nights with Brian, giggling and snuggling and book reading with the boys, going out (or staying in) with my girlfriends, hibernating under a blanket with a novel in my hand and hot chocolate by my side, scrapbooking, writing, photographing and doing other blog related projects, taking walks around the neighborhood and crawling into bed at 8pm with no need to get up until morning.

I didn't see it until I had it all written down.  But, of course.  I do have time for all these things.  In fact, with the exception of the part about sleeping, these are the very things that make up my life.    
I just don't have a lot of time for most of them or, at least, not a lot of consecutive time.  But that is just part of this phase of life.  

Now that I've had this epiphany, I need to remember it and I also need to keep in mind that I can really only do one thing at a time.  No matter what's going on in my life, I have this tendency to think of everything else I "should be" doing.  I feel guilty for not spending time with the kids as I am working on a blog post.  Or, I feel guilty about neglecting housework when I am playing with Brian and the boys.  And, so on.  Again, this is just a part of life and, particularly, this phase of life.  

In the end, it's about realizing that I can't have all the time I want for everything I want, but that I can and should appreciate the time that is available.  I need to work on being present in the individual moments.

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